Six years ago I accepted a job offer. I knew I was letting myself to a tough relationship that my gut feeling did not approve of, but I chose not to listen to it. I did not listen because it sounded rationally so good and then I had my ego interfere. I had applied to … Continue reading Hindsight
Vulnerability
This story is a tough one. I kept it for myself for many years because it is about one of the most vulnerable moments in my life. I never felt strong enough to talk about it, nor to write about it. I didn't know what to do with this story. Just forget? It didn't work. … Continue reading Vulnerability
Gone with the Wind
Something happened yesterday. I was mindlessly browsing through Facebook. I was at my computer, I had a lot of work to do on a Sunday. I was bored, stressed and also a bit mad at myself. I actually wanted to be outside, I wanted to walk, meet friends, do yoga. Anything. Instead, I was sitting … Continue reading Gone with the Wind
You and Me
WHILE I was going to say your arrival is a blessing... Somebody else opened the door. MYTHE Nobody no longer can leave me alone. PERSPECTIVE When I look at the inside of you You are left outside. When I look at you from outside I cannot fit you in me. ULTRA When I put a … Continue reading You and Me
Transience
SEVGILERDE Sevgileri yarınlara bıraktınız Çekingen, tutuk, saygılı. Bütün yakınlarınız Sizi yanlış tanıdı. Bitmeyen işler yüzünden (Siz böyle olsun istemezdiniz) Bir bakış bile yeterken anlatmaya her şeyi Kalbinizi dolduran duygular Kalbinizde kaldı. AT LOVES You postponed love to tomorrows Shy, timid, respectful. Noone around you knew you well. Because of neverending work (and you wouldn' t want … Continue reading Transience
Story of a Sabattical – Letting Go
Starting a new life meant closing down the old one. It meant allowing oneself to be free of any burdens that may hinder one from being able to make free choices. My burdens which held me captive in Munich were my job, my flat and all my material possessions in that flat. I knew I did … Continue reading Story of a Sabattical – Letting Go
Gratitude
I was twenty-six years old. A happy, shiny, restless girl who was enjoying the life to its full extent in Munich. I was a student, having many international friends and taking everything that the city had to offer. I had a student job, a nice little cute student dorm to live in and lots of … Continue reading Gratitude
Story of a Sabattical – The Beginning
It all started with letting go. I had to learn to let go. It was not easy, at the same time it was my first step towards a happier self. In 2013 I moved (back) to Munich from Cologne, Germany. I had studied in Munich, I had a history there and my friends, who have been … Continue reading Story of a Sabattical – The Beginning
Thank You ThoughtWorks
I owe you this ThoughtWorks: Thank You. Thank you for bringing me back to who I once was. Someone who believed in herself and in what she did, who is passionate, joyful and full of energy. I came to ThoughtWorks (TW) because of a good friend's recommendation. He said "Pinar I know you are going … Continue reading Thank You ThoughtWorks
Buenos Aires Querida
I am on my way back from Buenos Aires to Barcelona. It is the third time that I am on this route and it is the first time that I am not heartbroken to say goodbye. Still, secretly in me, I am wishing if only I had one more week... Each time I leave Buenos Aires, … Continue reading Buenos Aires Querida
